I Actually WANT to write…finally!

Today I had an hours extra sleep because I felt too tired when my alarm when off. I didn’t have breakfast until midday. But all of a sudden I was just listening to a podcast and playing a game on my Ipad when I thought I actually want to write something.

This is the first time I have had this feeling for as long as I can remember.

I haven’t written anything on here in way too long but there has been, what feels like, a lot going on for me.

I have been job searching, I have been having tests to find out what is causing me to be ill and, of course, I have been ill for about three months now. However, I feel like I am getting to the end of this stage and moving into the next.

Let’s talk about my illness first.

After accidently eating something containing Lactose a few months ago I bought some apples and was eating one a day but I wasn’t getting better, I was still having attacks. I stopped eating the apples and the attacks stopped but other symptoms lingered. After many a night of being in pain with my belly and being very fatigued I called the Drs. I have ended up having to have blood tests, send a couple of samples off and see a gastroenterologist. But I finally may now what’s causing these issues.

One of my samples showed that I have an irritable bowel disease, most likely some form of colitis. I am just waiting on a final appointment, where I just need a small procedure done and then should get my official diagnosis, and then I can start on treatment. The best news from all of this? Getting the correct treatment will mean that I will be able to eat what I want without any more attacks. That’s right, folks, I will be able to eat anything containing lactose, I’ll be able to have cheese, I could eat a proper curry for the first time in my life!

This is huge and could completely change my life.

The blood tests also showed that I am severely deficient in Vitamin D so I have been prescribed super strong tablets for 20 days and then I have to take a particular type of other-the-counter vitamin D for the whole of winter. The tablets I am on are so strong that I have already noticed the difference. I am not nearly as fatigued as I have been and I have started getting urges to do things.

And that’s why today I actually felt like I wanted to write. Ok so on the other hand I was meant to go to the shops today but I didn’t feel up to it but that’s because my body has other female-specific things happening that is preventing me from being able to go out today.

A big indication that these tablets are working is because I went to the shops the other morning and I came home and didn’t crash. I got the shopping put away and then I did some filming and editing for my YouTube videos.

All of this is giving me some startling revelations as well. When I have been employed but have felt exhausted over the winter it might not actually be because I am overwhelmed from being exhausted, it actually might have been because of fatigue caused by a vitamin deficiency. This is going to help create a massive change in my future. So what if I have to take a vitamin a day over winter when it means not feeling rubbish every single day and not feeling like I am fighting through sludge whenever I am trying to do anything.

So let’s get to the job section of this lovely ramble.

I have been getting fantastic support through Reed to help me get back into employment. My work coach helped me write up an up-to-date CV, helped me choose jobs to apply for and also reinforces that I don’t need to just apply for jobs willy-nilly but to be pickier and to only apply for things that I know I would be capable of doing.

This brings me round to yesterday and I actually had a job interview.

I am trying to not get my hopes up too much because I actually would love to do the job and think it would be perfect for me. It’s working in a very large charity shop in the fashion department and the majority of the job will be working in the back (not on a shop floor) sorting through donations, quality control etc and typically working on my own. That would be great for me and I also think I could contribute to the store in this role.

So that’s it, a whole round up of what’s been happening with me recently, why I haven’t been writing and why I am writing today. Don’t forget if you want to keep up with what I am doing you can subscribe to my YouTube channel for weekly videos – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUVDox_MJVMPOmYxqbaSdGg/


Author: AdultsWithAustism

I decided I wanted to do something positive with my life and speak out about what it feels like to be an adult with autism.

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